It's been over a year since I've written in this blog. Apparently, the last time I wrote here, I was mad. Guess what? Yep, I'm mad.
I am now at the library. It stays open until 1 a.m. I may or may not be here, it just depends on how much I calm down. OK, I suppose every one knows I won't be here at 1 a.m., and since I don't even have as much as a toothbrush with me, I suppose I'll go home. Eventually.
I type about 100 words a minute. Gusts up to that, anyway. I am the only one here...among many students...who's typing like a bat out of...bats don't type. I could have used a bat ealier. I could have smacked a few people with it. I get gleeful just thinking about it.
Both my sisters left town. They live an hour away from me now...I'm suddenly very lonely for my sisters.
What am I mad about this time, you ask? Glad you asked. I got mad at the BIL for failing to do what he offered to do, disappointing someone important to me. Then, his brother, the one I married, took his side in it. Let's just say things got ugly. Now, I'm stting at the library typing on a germy computer, and he's home in front of the TV, feet propped up, food to eat (I didn't even eat I was so mad. He just wouldn't shut up! I kept saying are you finished yet? He would say "Yes," then keep on. Finally, when I said, "are you finished yet?" He said, "I'll let you know when I'm finished." So I finished for him by leaving. However, he won and I lost because here I sit.
I called my daughter, but she had company, and I didn't want to barge in. Besides, I wouldn't have burdened her with my anger. She's got plenty to deal with as it is. I'm not proofing this. If there's mistakes, well, so be it.
Anyway. I said some things I shouldn't have, as well. He just went much, much further. The fight shouldn't have happened, because I was right and they were wrong...and because we are adults, we shouldn't have acted that way.
I'm being nicer in this blog than I really feel because I'm really mad. I was upset with BIL to begin with, and that man I married just thinks that anything he does is fine and dandy. I promise you, the man has done a LOT of damage to my family. Caused untold grief. But that's history. Right now, I'm mad about the current disappointment that he is. There was a time that I thought he was heaven sent to my family, but I assure you, I was wrong.
Nuff about him.
I guess that's enough here, too. I'll go surf the net a while.
PS: It's really hot in here.
